Friday, August 17, 2007

here i am...

psalm 62.8
trust in the Lord at all times, o people;
pour out your heart to Him;
God is a refuge for us.

as i drove the 6 hours down to nashville today, following my parents in a van filled with my stuff, i was reminded of the dreams that were in my heart 8 months ago when i started heading this direction... how desperately i wanted to make the name of Jesus Christ known wherever i land, and how excited i was at the thought of doing that in nashville... a city with a church on every corner, and every other person you meet is a 'christian'...
i thought of everything the Lord has done over the past 4 years at college, the things He has broken my heart for, the trials He's taken me through, the joy and the victories had in walking closely with Him... and at the risk of being overly-dramatic, i can't help but feel that coming here is the culmination of all of that... this is where He has taken me, after all He has done in me...
and i want nothing else but to magnify His name... HIS NAME... not the name of cara slaybaugh... i want to be okay with no-one looking twice at my name... but i want people to see my Beautiful Savior.

i know those can be just words... but that is all i know to say to express my heart right now... i have felt every emotion under the sun today, and i am plagued by doubt and fear of what is to come in the next months and years... but when i am reminded of the faithfulness of my God, and that He wants His name to be magnified in this city even more than i do... i can rest.

stay tuned for the journey of a starving artist in love with her Pursuer...

3 comments:

Willi said...

i will be praying for you!!!


I was looking throught the pics from Lincoln Lake, and I was thinking...
man we had a good time....

Bethany said...

I'm so proud of you for doing something you want to do even though it's kind of scary and unknown. :o) I really can't wait to catch up with you. I'll be moving out to C-ville over Labor Day and once I get settled and Brandon takes off, most of the craziness will have passed and I'll be able to sit down and write you a long letter or have a long phone conversation. Anyway...just wanted you to know I am thinking about you, and, more importantly, praying for you :o)

Kel said...

hi:-)
I can't wait to read up on your adventures.... I love you to pieces!
kel