tomorrow i am driving up to cedarville...
i may never come back...
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Sunday, August 19, 2007
what now?...
it's sunday afternoon... and my parents have left.
i'm officially on my own.
with a big dream in a big world.
what now?
i was telling randy, whose house i am living in for awhile (he's my mom's cousin's husband...how's that for connections?), that i don't even know what i'm going to do with myself this week, having no job and knowing no one... and he just said, "well, the first thing you need to do this week is just spend a lot of time in prayer."
such simple advice... that i desperately needed to hear. they're having people over tonight for a going away party for their daughter, and he told me that they would love to have a prayer time for me... to offer me a support system, to know that people are behind me... wow.
in just 2 days of being here, there have already been little things happen where i have just seen my God show up... He is quietly speaking comfort to my nervous heart... reminding me that i am His.
i can't wait to watch His plans unfold.
i'm officially on my own.
with a big dream in a big world.
what now?
i was telling randy, whose house i am living in for awhile (he's my mom's cousin's husband...how's that for connections?), that i don't even know what i'm going to do with myself this week, having no job and knowing no one... and he just said, "well, the first thing you need to do this week is just spend a lot of time in prayer."
such simple advice... that i desperately needed to hear. they're having people over tonight for a going away party for their daughter, and he told me that they would love to have a prayer time for me... to offer me a support system, to know that people are behind me... wow.
in just 2 days of being here, there have already been little things happen where i have just seen my God show up... He is quietly speaking comfort to my nervous heart... reminding me that i am His.
i can't wait to watch His plans unfold.
Friday, August 17, 2007
here i am...
psalm 62.8
trust in the Lord at all times, o people;
pour out your heart to Him;
God is a refuge for us.
as i drove the 6 hours down to nashville today, following my parents in a van filled with my stuff, i was reminded of the dreams that were in my heart 8 months ago when i started heading this direction... how desperately i wanted to make the name of Jesus Christ known wherever i land, and how excited i was at the thought of doing that in nashville... a city with a church on every corner, and every other person you meet is a 'christian'...
i thought of everything the Lord has done over the past 4 years at college, the things He has broken my heart for, the trials He's taken me through, the joy and the victories had in walking closely with Him... and at the risk of being overly-dramatic, i can't help but feel that coming here is the culmination of all of that... this is where He has taken me, after all He has done in me...
and i want nothing else but to magnify His name... HIS NAME... not the name of cara slaybaugh... i want to be okay with no-one looking twice at my name... but i want people to see my Beautiful Savior.
i know those can be just words... but that is all i know to say to express my heart right now... i have felt every emotion under the sun today, and i am plagued by doubt and fear of what is to come in the next months and years... but when i am reminded of the faithfulness of my God, and that He wants His name to be magnified in this city even more than i do... i can rest.
stay tuned for the journey of a starving artist in love with her Pursuer...
trust in the Lord at all times, o people;
pour out your heart to Him;
God is a refuge for us.
as i drove the 6 hours down to nashville today, following my parents in a van filled with my stuff, i was reminded of the dreams that were in my heart 8 months ago when i started heading this direction... how desperately i wanted to make the name of Jesus Christ known wherever i land, and how excited i was at the thought of doing that in nashville... a city with a church on every corner, and every other person you meet is a 'christian'...
i thought of everything the Lord has done over the past 4 years at college, the things He has broken my heart for, the trials He's taken me through, the joy and the victories had in walking closely with Him... and at the risk of being overly-dramatic, i can't help but feel that coming here is the culmination of all of that... this is where He has taken me, after all He has done in me...
and i want nothing else but to magnify His name... HIS NAME... not the name of cara slaybaugh... i want to be okay with no-one looking twice at my name... but i want people to see my Beautiful Savior.
i know those can be just words... but that is all i know to say to express my heart right now... i have felt every emotion under the sun today, and i am plagued by doubt and fear of what is to come in the next months and years... but when i am reminded of the faithfulness of my God, and that He wants His name to be magnified in this city even more than i do... i can rest.
stay tuned for the journey of a starving artist in love with her Pursuer...
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