Tuesday, November 13, 2007

stripping all away...

sorry for the serious lack of a post... it's been hard to put anything into words lately.

the Lord has taken me through seasons in the past where He has painfully taken away things that tempt me to find life in them, rather than in Him... and i am in the midst of such a season again, and deeper in than i've ever experienced. as i have written about in the past, nashville can seem like such a desert right now, being separated from what has been familiar and comfortable to me for so long. after feeling that for the first couple of months here, the Lord has stripped things away even more... leaving me completely broken before Him, aware that He truly is all i need...

but to be totally honest, i have wrestled with Him more this time than ever before... which is really rather foolish, because it only brings more pain. so i am learning surrender, because i am completely finite and He is truly infinite. His perspective is so much greater.

for those wanting a black and white update here... i am in my 3rd month at starbucks, still loving it. i have had a couple gigs recently, and have a couple upcoming gigs that are even paid! nothing has opened up for what i know my heart would be happy doing long-term, but enough to keep me going... i am always reminded by people in the know here that i just have to be patient.

i'll leave you with some beautiful promises that the Lord reminded me of this morning.

jeremiah 31.13b, 14, 17, 25
for I will turn their mourning into joy
and will comfort them and give them joy for their sorrow.
I will fill the soul of the priests with abundance,
and My people will be satisfied with My goodness, declares the Lord.
there is hope for your future, declares the Lord.
for I will satisfy the weary ones and refresh everyone who languishes.


valerielee said...

it is in the wrestling with God, that I think we come away closer to Him. We've been there, we've tried our own way, we've been completely honest, we've been with Him...may your face shine bright as Moses because you've been with Him, wrestled with Him, surrendered to Him. You are beautiful! I am so glad to know you.

Anonymous said...

Cara Slaybaugh...I'm glad that I have now found this blog spot of yours. And it was good to read your last post- also a good reminder of Truth for MY heart.
Waiting is so so hard sometimes - and waiting in PEACE is even harder. I find myself wanting to hurry God along, to coach Him, to "remind" Him of what would probably be best for me...and it's so foolish! How much better to relax and enjoy the ride He is guiding me through. Be strong in the Lord, Car! He's the only one steady in this world.

Ps. 27:13-14 "I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage, wait for the Lord!"

courtneykayla said...

i didn't know you had blogger. yaay. :)